I find myself on the edge of a meltdown.
I’m in the unique position of knowing that one chapter of my life is coming to an end very soon, like three months soon, and not knowing what is to come after that. We humans do everything in our power to plan and prepare for “what’s next.” And when we don’t have that lined up, we are falling short. I have done my best to be open to what’s next, but open-mindedness is not an easy trait to possess when suffering with first-born syndrome.
Sometimes, I think people assume that life gets easier when you follow Christ. And being the English major that I am, I feel obligated to address this word “easier” we tend to use:
Life does not get easier the closer to God you get. You do not become immune to trials and issues and conflict and illness and worry and confusion and loneliness. IF ANYTHING, the trials of Earth rear their ugly heads more often at you because you are living in a way that is counter to how culture and humans and the world want you to. The world wants you focused on money, power, fame and materials. Christ keeps it real simple for us: Keep your eyes fixed on Me.
It’s easy to lose focus when the voices of others, the influence of the media and the songs playing in the background challenge what we deem as important. The messages we are receiving tell us we deserve things we really don’t. They tell us our bodies are merely objects and that our followers won’t notice our broken hearts if our clothes are pretty enough. They tell us to keep quiet about our faith, and that we have to be the best.
And tonight, I’m noticing I’ve had my eyes fixed on the things of the world for a bit too long. The world has a way of twisting reality and photoshopping expectations until you’re convinced you’ll never measure up.
If only we take a moment to seek God’s heart. The heart that loved us enough to send His Son to die so that we could live, a sacrifice my human brain can only semi-grasp every so often. The only detail we need to be concerned with is keeping our eyes locked on the One who loves us best and has a plan that proves it.
And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. Hebrews 12:1b-2a